There is one energy here.
Even though we are miles apart. Even though you, as the reader, and I, as the writer, are in two different worlds, separate in time and space, we share the same energy. We are dancing, breathing in, spiraling, reveling, and bathing in one energy that connects us both. Though we forget, though it feels like we are lonely beings in a world that carries on without us, we are utterly connected and intimately in union.
This energy, this vitality, that I speak of, is the intelligence that animates everything, the connecting bridge between us, and it is none other than the universal life force. It is the alive, moving, shifting energy that brings this reality into being and animates it from birth to death.
Even though your tendency is to think that you are alone, even though your thoughts say, “I am bad,” “I am unworthy,” or “I am unlovable,” the very nature of who you are is this life energy. The very essence of who you are is this vitality. The whole of you, right now, is operating because of a sacred intelligence, a holy energy that animates this One Life.
Why then do you feel alone? Why on earth do you feel separate, disconnected, and lost? It is only your conditioning, your thoughts, your old patterns that convince you time and again that you are less than beautiful. The truth is – your life, exactly the way it is in this moment, with all its pain and suffering, with all its anguish and anxieties, with all its struggle, is this life force. Your pain is no different than the pleasure you experience. Your suffering is no different than the celebrations you enjoy. The one life force, that one holy energy, is the sacred intelligence that pervades all things, all circumstances, all experiences. Your life is not only a gift, it is God.
Then, how do you do it? How do you see all your life as sacred? How do you accept that unworthy, unlovable part of you? You do it with the power of your attention. You must turn it towards God. You must stop turning the other way and face the world within. You must come to know your life force in its fullness, your vitality in its expansiveness, your authenticity in its uniqueness, and finally, perhaps for the first time in your life, see the undivided whole of you.
You see, when your attention turns inward, upon the landscape within, that is the beginning. That is the first step in finding and loving all of you. Then, when you are facing all of yourself, your light and dark parts, your joys and your depression, your excitement and your shame, that is when you will behold the fullness of God.
By shining the bright light of your attention inward, that is when all things inside you reveal themselves, that is when you will face and finally accept the part of you that lies in the dark. Yet, until then, your shadow will continue to haunt you. Until then, your pain and suffering will continue to pin you down. Until then, you will push yourself away and yet again give yourself the message that a part of you is unacceptable, unlovable, and unworthy. It is only when you look within and see the fullness of you – the inner opposites that make up your unique and amazing life – that you will be able to accept and express the joys and sorrows of your life.
Then, when misfortune returns, when pain knocks on the rusty corners of your life, when discomfort descends into your day, it won’t trouble you. You will remember, you will acknowledge, ah yes, this an expression of the One, the holy, the sacred life energy. Though appearing as pain, you won’t push it away this time, you will instead receive it is a gift to unwrap, to revere, and to love.
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